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Life is better with you

We interrupt this blog for the sole purpose of wishing my beloved a very happy 20th anniversary. I have only this to say:

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Small

Girls night. The thing is, she DID look great. I said as much. Blame me for starting it all. Her number one tax break was still several months shy of his first birthday, but in she walked wearing this snug … Continue reading

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And she pondered

Ponder- to think about carefully; to weigh in the mind with thoroughness;to reflect or consider deeply   “..but Mary kept all these things and pondered them in her  heart.”*     Righteous and young, pure of heart, free of touch/ … Continue reading

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For unto us..the child.

It was not a silent night/ There was blood on the ground/You could hear a woman cry/In the alleyways that night/On the streets on David’s town And the stable was not clean/And the cobblestones were cold/And little Mary full of … Continue reading

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The way you do the things you do

“People love in their own way..”    It was a quiet rebuke. Seemingly defensive. Unmistakably disapproving. But quiet nonetheless. And being spoken to in such a manner has a powerful shock-to-the-system effect on me that must be very similar to … Continue reading

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1095 days

Celebrations really are a mixed bag. While there’s no 12 step group to offer judgment free support, there are some whose compulsions to break out the flimsy crepe paper and cloying confections the moment they catch the faintest whisper of … Continue reading

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Journal entry: May 23, 2008

This plane is freezing. Really freezing. When did planes get so cold?? It physically hurts me. I’ve been cold like this for months. Cold to the bone. I’m wearing Jeff’s coat over 2 sweatshirts over my T-shirt. I have a … Continue reading

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It’s been 35 years since my last confession..

I cried in my therapist’s office yesterday. Such as I cry, that is. My eyes welling up and my voice getting froggy is akin to a more emotionally evolved person flinging themselves on the floor and raking their fingernails on … Continue reading

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A butterfly effect

In my home today, “fat”, is a prosecutable term. Now, I do understand that it’s a perfectly appropriate adjective to employ when one is describing a Red Robin onion-straw burger, or Hello Kitty’s inexplicably disproportionate head, yet I still catch … Continue reading

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Remembering

So, okay. It’s eating disorder awareness week, right? True, some disorders/afflictions/ diseases are honored with a month-long dedication, but we’ll take what we can get. In some parts of the country, organizations are gearing up for marathon walks to increase … Continue reading

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