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Category Archives: reflections
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Girls night. The thing is, she DID look great. I said as much. Blame me for starting it all. Her number one tax break was still several months shy of his first birthday, but in she walked wearing this snug … Continue reading
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POW! ZAM!
Our dog’s name is Batman. This makes me smile. And as we are a culture enamored with our pets, I’m asked my dog’s name often. We’re popular on the walking trails. In my experience, introducing a big, black shaggy mutt … Continue reading
Posted in animals, children, dogs, family, humor, kids, life, miscellaneous, musings, other, Personal, Personal, pets, random, reflections, thoughts, writing
Tagged animals, children, dogs, family, humor, kids, life, miscellaneous, musings, other, Personal, pets, random, reflections, thoughts, writing
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The way you do the things you do
“People love in their own way..” It was a quiet rebuke. Seemingly defensive. Unmistakably disapproving. But quiet nonetheless. And being spoken to in such a manner has a powerful shock-to-the-system effect on me that must be very similar to … Continue reading
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Tagged agape, Christian, Christianity, faith, friends, friendship, God, grace, life, love, me, musings, other, people, Personal, reflection, relationships, thoughts, writing
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1095 days
Celebrations really are a mixed bag. While there’s no 12 step group to offer judgment free support, there are some whose compulsions to break out the flimsy crepe paper and cloying confections the moment they catch the faintest whisper of … Continue reading
Posted in Ana, anniversaries, anorexia, appearance, beauty, body dysmorphic disorder, body hatred, body image, bulimia, celebrations, eating disorders, Ed, faith, health, journal, life, me, mia, miscellaneous, musings, other, Personal, Personal, random, recovery, reflections, Remuda Ranch, social pressure, thoughts, treatment, weight, women, writing
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Journal entry: May 23, 2008
This plane is freezing. Really freezing. When did planes get so cold?? It physically hurts me. I’ve been cold like this for months. Cold to the bone. I’m wearing Jeff’s coat over 2 sweatshirts over my T-shirt. I have a … Continue reading
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Tagged Ana, anorexia, appearance, body dysmorphic disorder, body hatred, body image, bulimia, crossroads, eating disorders, Ed, health, inpatient treatment, journal, life, me, mia, musings, Personal, random, recovery, reflections, Remuda Ranch, thoughts, treatment, weight, writing
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It’s been 35 years since my last confession..
I cried in my therapist’s office yesterday. Such as I cry, that is. My eyes welling up and my voice getting froggy is akin to a more emotionally evolved person flinging themselves on the floor and raking their fingernails on … Continue reading
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Tagged Ana, anorexia, appearance, beauty, body dysmorphic disorder, body hatred, body image, bulimia, Christian, Christianity, eating disorders, Ed, faith, God, health, insecurity, journal, life, me, mia, musings, outpatient treatment, Personal, random, recovery, reflections, social pressure, thoughts, treatment, weight, women, writing
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A butterfly effect
In my home today, “fat”, is a prosecutable term. Now, I do understand that it’s a perfectly appropriate adjective to employ when one is describing a Red Robin onion-straw burger, or Hello Kitty’s inexplicably disproportionate head, yet I still catch … Continue reading
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Tagged Ana, anorexia, beauty, binge eating disorder, body dysmorphic disorder, body hatred, body image, bulimia, Christian, Christianity, eating disorders, Ed, faith, friends, friendship, God, inpatient treatment, insecurity, life, me, mia, musings, other, outpatient treatment, overeating, people, Personal, random, recovery, reflections, relationships, social pressure, special people, thoughts, treatment, weight, women, writing
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Remembering
So, okay. It’s eating disorder awareness week, right? True, some disorders/afflictions/ diseases are honored with a month-long dedication, but we’ll take what we can get. In some parts of the country, organizations are gearing up for marathon walks to increase … Continue reading
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Seeing God
As children, our ideas of God and heaven are delicate but supple buds. Our roots are thirsty and malleable, our immature leaves striated with whimsy and wish. One of my sons is looking forward to the afterlife as an existence … Continue reading
Posted in children, Christian, Christianity, faith, family, God, life, love, me, motherhood, musings, parenthood, parenting, Personal, Personal, random, reflections, relationships, thoughts, women, writing
Tagged children, Christianity, faith, family, God, life, love, me, motherhood, musings, parenthood, Personal, random, reflections, relationships, thoughts, women, writing
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Enter grace : stage right
Being in treatment was a life changing experience. Remuda Ranch is a place utterly drenched in God. I felt His serenity amidst the discord, His renewal of my spirit against its damage, and His restoration mending my body. With each … Continue reading
Posted in anorexia, Christian, Christianity, eating disorders, faith, God, grace, inpatient treatment, life, me, musings, Personal, Personal, recovery, reflections, relationships, thoughts, treatment, writing
Tagged anorexia, Christianity, eating disorders, faith, God, grace, inpatient treatment, life, me, Personal, reflections, relationships, thoughts, treatment, writing
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